There's Always Light at the End of the Tunnel

Over a month ago I wrote about how I had managed a full year without self-harm . An entire year despite some challenging times but I managed a whole year without self-harm and I was over the moon! Proud of myself, glad I finally felt like I was making real progress and I was ready to continue on with my life free from self-harm. About a week or so after that post things took quiet a turn. My mood dipped, my sleep became disturbed my appetite was disappearing and I was finding it increasing difficult to manage my constant changing emotions and soon I found myself battling with the urges to self-harm once again.   It was almost as it had just creeped up on me, I almost didn’t notice this relapse taking over; depression had engulfed me in a matter of days. Simple tasks become a struggle, going to college, scouts, athletics the youth café and even work became a struggle and the enjoyment I got from these activities soon decreased and they simply became the things I had to do t...

A week later and a completed course of antibiotics I’m disappointed to say I still have a significant amount of pain on in my jaw. While there has been little improvement with the pain I have been experiencing it is with great relief that I can say my surgeon feels the pain is related to the nerves beginning to work again in my lower lip, he also did mention that the inside of my mouth was looking better than last week so any slight infection that may have been there has cleared up! Thank Goodness because those antibiotics had taken their toll on me, at least it wasn’t for nothing. Last week I wrote about the frustration of having another set back in my recovery, this week I don’t see it so much as a set back. The nerves beginning to work again, despite the pain associated with it can only be a good thing! It was a long week, filled with ups and downs, tears and smiles and I think it could have been one of the hardest weeks since surgery, so much so I found my self-reaching out f...